03 – 09 January 2021
Monday
I wasn’t going to break down the end of weeks by day, but I’m really excited to share the things that happened today that I wanted to document it. Tonight at CrossFit, I had a really good night. There were a few things that happened that made it amazing. The first is that there is a new girl and it was really cool to have a new member. But it was also really cool to see someone who is currently in the position I was in seven months ago. She was nervous, can’t do a pull up (I still can’t), and was just trying it out. It reminded me how far I have come over the last eight months and how I can keep going to hit my goal.
The second thing that happened was I did a fucking double under!! I’ve been working on them for months and I finally did it! Now I just need to get them to be consecutive. For me, it helps to jump higher while pushing my feet just a bit forward.
The third thing was that I finished all 100 situps. Starting out, I could only do crunches, then I could only do half the situps, and now, I did them all! I was so fucking stoked. I’m sure I will feel the effort I put in tomorrow but that’s totally okay by me.
Tuesday
Today I was back at work again for the second day in a row… haha. But I just really hate working at a desk all day. I want to be out meeting people and working in my studio making stuff. I know that I am going to have to build the business if I ever want to do that full time, I know I can do it. Just have to take that one day at a time just like I am my health and nutrition. It’s all a balance I have to figure out.
Wednesday
Today I got up at 3:30 am and was awake. Like awake, awake. So I got up got on the treadmill and got my workout wrapped up by 5:30 am. I ate breakfast and got the chi machine in. I’m trying to eat dinner at 4 pm and then be done eating for the day. I think because I’m eating so late it’s fucking with my weigh-ins in the morning. So, we are going to try and get it back on track. I’m five pounds behind where I’m supposed to be this week and it’s definitely fucking with my head. I don’t like it at all. I know I need to plan for plateaus, but honestly, I don’t want to. I want to keep my head down, work fucking hard, and get this weight off my body.
Thursday
Last night’s CrossFit challenged us to do a 2k meter row. I did it in 9:28, that is so great because even at Thanksgiving when I had to do a 5k row, I had to stop every thousand meters to take a break. Yesterday, I went through 2k meters unbroken. I was definitely tired at the end but I was so incredibly proud of myself doing that.
This morning was rough waking up. I did wake up at 4:30 am but it took me an hour to get out of bed. I was on the treadmill by 6:15 which was great and got in my bodyweight workout before my Mastermind call at 8:00 am. I don’t want to cut it that close to the start of the day, but I am proud I got everything done.
Friday
Today was a tough day. I had a meeting with the owners of the company and I made a comment that I shouldn’t have made. The meeting took a quick turn into “do you even think you are right for this position?” And honestly, I don’t actually know if I’m right for the position anymore. I want to be. But I really don’t actually know if I am.
When I am fat and miserable allowing myself to work 80 hours a week, I’m really good at my job but horrible to myself. When I start taking care of myself and getting my life together, I’m actually horrible at my job. This makes me wonder if I’m even cut out for advertising anymore.
I’m not sure what I would actually do if I left advertising, to be honest, I’ve done it for so long. Maybe there’s a way I can become a consultant or do it freelance? I’m not sure. I need to figure something out.
Saturday
Uhmmm can we talk about how much the CrossFit workout sucked ass today? Fucking slamball burpees… What was JB thinking!? He was thinking about murdering us. That’s exactly what he was thinking.
I’m still down a little from yesterday but trying to work through it. I’m not sure how to attack it and really trying to realize if what I want to do is at the company I am currently at. I’m wondering if I can do anything in the fitness realm but still creative? Starting to kind of explore things and see what’s possible. I think it’s important to explore the pros and cons of staying and also leaving.
Okay so here are the deets from the week:
Food
This week I focused on getting my ass back on my nutrition as precise as I could. I am so ready for this fucking weight to be off of me I want to get more aggressive with my nutrition so I can drop weight. When I say aggressive, know that I mean healthy, I am working with a nutritionist who is monitoring all my macros. I will never starve myself or binge or anything. Nutrition is so important for strong muscles and a healthy body.
Breakfast
- 6 Eggs
- 1 Grapefruit
- 50g Cottage Cheese
Lunch
- 200g Shredded Chicken
- 1 Soft Taco Tortilla
- 4 t Taco Seasoning
- 2 T Salsa
- 4 Egg Whites
Dinner
- 100g Top Sirloin Steak
- 1 Egg
- 100g broccoli
- 1 Apple
- 50g Cottage Cheese
Snack
- 17g Unsalted Cashews
Workouts
Workouts this week are focusing on one rep maxes getting us set into what we are able to do so that we can improve throughout the year.
Weight
Actual weight this week was: 238.6 (3.6 pounds off of goal)
Goal Weight to hit this week: 235
